Let me start off with saying that 2015 has absolutely been one of the best years EVER!! Like honestly I think it couldn't have been any better! So I was excited and scared of 2016. I had no idea what would come to me. Shortly after New years eve, I realized that my anxiety got proven right. It began terribly. It started with gossiping behing my back, breaking up with my boyfriend, not getting accepted at my dream uni and ended somewhere with being let down by several people that I thought meant a lot to me. Well... all these things might seem hard and disappointing, and yes, it was rough, but in the end I can say that I learnt SO much. I think this must've been "The year of learning".
When I'm older and look back on this post I want to remember all the things I realized (what a reference to Kylie Jenner), all the things I achieved and how I got SO much stronger. I am really proud of myself and I want to come back here and see that I managed to get through it all. I'm sure it'll get worse and I'm sure there will be harder times to come but I will always get through it and learn a lesson.
Turned out that people who were mean to me, made me love myself even more, breaking up with my boyfriend felt like a release and my "dream" uni turned out to be the wrong thing for me. I accepted an internship at a marketing company and even though at first my social anxiety made it hard for me to meet new people I got over it and I'm now incredibly happy to work with the people in my office. I know this is only a little segment of my life and it now seems like it's the biggest problem in the entire world, I'm still proud of myself and I am now more confident, happier and I can learn how to handle difficult situations.
I'm, again, excited and scared of what 2017 will bring me but I'm sure that no matter what, I will be stronger and grow as a person!
So come at me 2017! I'm ready. Love is in beauty and in chaos.
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